I AM N0T LIBERAL!!!

Adakah aku yang pelik?

Adakah aku yang salah??

Adakah aku yang tak sporting???

Adakah aku yang narrow-minded????

Adakah aku perlu menjadi lebih liberal?????

NO WAY!!! I AM NOT GOING TO BE LIBERAL!!!

Mende yang salah tetap salah...kan?

U can't expect me to acknowledge something wrong as right....

It's definitely wrong when you see guys dancing on stage in swimsuit-moulin rouge-kinda dress up, with boobs and without balls!!!

It's definitely wrong!!!

Aku pun takde la alim...tapi what has become of the world when you can openly talk about ur sins, what u've done wrong to public?? Cakap depan2 org sambil gelak2...a'ah aku mmg tak solat...what the heck!!!

Where's ur sense of shame and guilt??

It's definitely wrong!!!!

Not trying to be a hypocrite my ass!!!

Pissed??!!! No...i am not pissed....
I just dont know how to react to this...

THINK...

I had always been a person who likes to get inspired.
I like listening to real life stories of people who exceeds the ordinary.
And all this while, I have to thank these two people.
I have two lovely mentors whom I look highly after...

I had two mentors actually...

One of them, the longest one I've been with past away of lung cancer just recently.
I didn't even get to see her when she was in the hospital.
She was like a mother to me.
I really miss her.

My other mentor is the person I'd go to for advice on life.
She's the perfect person to go to when I feel that I needed a scolding.
She cares for me a lot...

Both my mentors are expert in their very own ways.
But I miss my 1st mentor bcoz she is able to 'read' me and my actions before I am able to even understand them.
My 2nd mentor is also able to 'read' people, but not in the same way...

For a while now, I've been dreading not having a person who is able to 'read' me...
To know who I am, how I am...
I miss having somebody understanding me when I say the least...
Though it is scary having a person knowing u inside out with just one look...
But it makes u think...
It makes u analyze urself...
Look back at yourself...

Now,
When I least expect it...
I found someone...
I thought he was scary since he was my trainer at work...
But somehow,
slowly...i see that he is able to 'read' most of us in class...

And one day, I gather all my courage and ask...
Sir, can you read people...
and he answered...yes...
And then we had a long talk...

He reminded me of my 1st mentor...
Whom I miss so much...
He talked of things that I would never have talked about to anyone...
He guided me...
He gave me advice...

Finally...somebody who makes me think...
Somebody who makes me analyze and muhasabah myself...
Someone who cares enough to tell me what I'm doing is wrong...

I missed that...
I hope he will always be around...
As a mentor...trainer and most importantly as a friend.

TRIP to KUALA TERENGGANU for WORLD GAMELAN FEST

YEY!!! SONOKNYA!!! DPT GAK KLUAR FROM KL NIH!!! HAHAHAHAHA

SO....GAMELAN WORLD FESTIVAL......I'M COMING!!!!

Date : 23 - 25hb Julai 2010
Show : 24hb (5.30-6.30pm, 9-11.30pm)
Accomodation : Teratai Homestay, Kg Kolam (20min from k.Tgnu)

Tentative:

23hb Julai 2010
Bertolak from KL - 2 atau 3pm

Sampai - 9 atau 10pm check-in ke homestay...

24hb Julai 2010
9am - 1pm : Istana Maziah > Bukit Puteri > Central Market > Pasar Besar Payang > LA Hot Spring (semua around the same vicinity....senang sket)

1 - 3pm : Lunch...balik homestay...solat...siap2...

3 - 5pm : Terengganu Museum Complex (Main Museum, a Maritime Museum, a Fisheries Museum, 4 traditional houses and botanic and herbs gardens...bnyk tuh)

5 - 7pm : Show Gamelan di Dataran Shahbandar

7.00 - 8.30pm : Dinner/ Solat

9 - 11.30pm : Ke Dataran Shahbandar

25hb Julai 2010
9am - 12tghari : Masjid Tengku Tgh Zaharah > Pantai Batu Burok > Squid Fishing Season =P

12 - 2pm : Packing....balik...

2 - 3pm : Bertolak balik ke KL


Can't wait to go...hahahahahaha =D

Huh?? Betulkah??

I came across this blog while surfing the web...the title was very BOLD and DARING...so I had to read it...
I have never given a thot to any of this...tapi bila dah terbaca....I started thinking...betulkah mende2 nih??? He said (the writer) that this is how to identify them...ye ke??

GAY IS THE WAY OF LIFE (writer nie giler ke hape)

Yang terang-terangan:
1.kalau berjalan -control macho even hakikat sebatu dah nampak kecatwalkannya
2.rambut kalau tak color..highligt
3.very da latest trend in everything and every way except politics & agama
4. Mulut mmg LAHA...*
5. Brand cautious
6. La QUeen rumah kedua (aku tak tau mende nie apa)
7. Blue Boy rumah alternative (nie pun tak tau gak)
8. kalau ada jantan malatop lalu, kepala pusing 360 darjah dan asyik dok melihat jantan tu tanpa jemu
9. minyak wangi kalau pakai mcm sebotol sehari
10. buckle tali pinggang D & G, Versace la, etc
11. Starbuck dan kedai2 minum sewaktu dengannya, tempat menunjukkan kemewahan even dalam wallet ngam2 nak bayar segelas minuman RM15. 95 (rumah ketiga) dan untuk memastikan duit worth every sen, lepak kat sana hampir 7-10 jam
12. Kasut semua depan tajam2 atau persegi
13. Pakai seluar mesit ketat nak tonjolkn bontot bubbly tu dan kebonjolan batang. setengah tu telur aja besar, batang, ibu jari aku lagi besar
14. handpone mesti ada camera, music function, latest brand dan kalau ada organizer, tak pernah lekang dari palm..ada aja dok menulis atas screen....tak ada life ker
15. suka seni dan hiburan - damn obvious (agak vague)
16. mata mcm2 color even kulit adik beradik kaum jakun
17. cincin kebanyakan pakai lebih dari satu
18. rapat dan comfortable dgn pompuan, kalau dgn jantan terutama yang melatop rasa resah dan berpeluh
19. pembersih, rumah kemas dan well groomed
20. rajin bekerja dan creative
21. dalam handphone contact list, 90% nama jantan... sapew nak jawab?
22. Sukan kegemaran bowling dan vollyball
23. pandai nyanyi dn menari serta kaki kareoke
24. kerja wajib, Sekretari, nurse dan PA, yang lain bersaing dgn pompuan demi atas nama keadilan.. hahahahahaa
25. pandai sembang2 dgn makcik2 dan good customer service.
26. suka warna2 kontrast dan terang
27. kalau jumpa gang, tetiba gedik, cakap nowk sana, nowk sini dan patah riuk betowl...kan da pecah lobang!!!!aduh....
28. Pose mesti tetap vogue
29. Center of attiention and always seek attention
30. OBVIOUSLY- penampilan memang ketara belainan dgn org lain, tak banyak pun, sikit mesti ada
31. kalau kes tak ada rambut, goatee kemestian...dan color brown lagi..hahahahaa..yang hairless..they make sure the face skin color same tone with the bald head color...ala warna kulit sekata menggunakan Garnier .
32. Pakai subang..arah betentangan dgn gay..saja nak kelirukan masyarakat..tapi ade jugak brani mati pkai blah kanan...masyarakat lagi keliru sebab apa jantan pakai subang..dah tu sebelah aja..sebelah lagi hilang ker? ngeee~
33. Favourite Tv program Prison break, desperate housewife, gilmore girls, Oprah winfrey show, mostly deoration related programs, etc, etc
34.sensitive dan kuat sentap...layak lar...
35. Artis luar negeri sah2 puja Michael Jackson,Barbra Streisand, beyonce ,mariah Carey,whitney Houston dan Celine Dion kalau tempatan sah sah Ning Baizura, CT Nurhaliza dan ziana zain....Anuar Zain, role model...

Yang tak terang-terangan:

1. karektor macho habis - hakikatnya manusia, ada at least 10 % ada sifat keperempuanan
2. suka sport2 car - tapi keta2 tu dihias dan didecorate ala2 casa impian...mcmana tu???
3. berkahwin - nak coverline..
4. ada anak - Kuasa Allah dan nasib baik ada
5. Ada awek dan siap berkepit - tapi jantan malatop lalu - aksi spontan mcm list di atas no 8...sila semak
6. tk suka pondan - sebab hakikat mereka lebih pondan atas katil...kenyataan tu!!!!
7.tak suka si lembut - sebab jealous nak keluarkan kelembutan diri tk boleh terlalu lagak macho

betul ke??? yg sedihnye budak nie melayu...aku rasa sayu sgt bila bc post dia nie...
seyesly....rasa sedih....

KEHILANGAN

YA ALLAH, SESUNGGUHNYA KAU MAHA PENGASIH, LAGI MAHA PENYAYANG, KAU MAHA MENGETAHUI DAN KAU JUGA MAHA AGUNG. YA ALLAH, LAKUKANLAH YANG TERBAIK BAGI GURUKU PUAN FATIMAH MUSTAFA. DIALAH PEMBIMBING KU, DIA LAH IBU KU. DIA ORG LUAR YANG PERTAMA YANG MENGAMBIL BERAT AKAN DIRIKU, CUBA MENJADIKAN AKU SEORANG INSAN YANG KAU REDHAI YA ALLAH. KPD KAU AKU MEMOHON, KPD KAULAH AKU BERSERAH.

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Aku bermula sebagai seorang yang ego, degil, keras kepala, tomboy, dan seorang pendendam. Aku jarang bergaul dengan rakan2 sewaktu di skolah dulu. I have only several close friends. I hated school and I hated mostly everyone there. Tiada sape yg berani menegurku, terutamanya rakan2 setingkatan dek wajahku yang garang. Tapi aku tak kesah sbb aku tak memerlukan mereka dlm hidup ke. That's when i was wrong.

When I was in form 4 she taught me in class. I couldnt care less. To me she was just another teacher. But when I went to form 5, she started punishing me even for little2 things. Dia pernah membuat ku berdiri di dalam kelas sepanjang sesi pembelajaran and lots more. Pada waktu itu aku berdendam kerana padaku dia hanya cuba untuk memalukan aku di hadapan rakan2 kelas ku. Until one day when she called me to her office. That was when she explained everything.

She said that, she understood me. And that she wanted to help me. She counseled me, gave me advice and made me what I am now, a human being. She showed her concern when I least expected it. She took care of me when I thought that life is very cruel towards me. She told me that I have to learn to love myself before I can learn to love anyone...she taught me a lot, especially lessons about life.

I am a changed person now because of her. I learn to care about others because of her. I learn to teach others because of her. She gave me so much. She made me a happier person. She made me a better person.

Ya Allah sesungguhnya jika kini adalah masanya untuk pergi...KAU permudahkanlah ya Allah...dia adalah tempat aku mengadu...tempat aku mencurah rasa...dia umpama ibu yang tidak pernah lokek kasih sayangnya...Ya Allah sesungguhnya tidak mudah untuk aku menerima kehilangan demi kehilangan ya Allah... menda yang paling aku takuti adalah ditinggalkan...tapi KAU duga ku dengan kehilangan baik yang kekal atau sementara...hati ini tidak cukup kuat untuk menghadapi segala...lalu air mata adalah peneman setia ku kebelakangan ini..

Minta Maaf

Buat mereka yang telah mencuba...

Terima kasih, jasa anda sangat dihargai...

Sy bukan diktator...saya tau sesetgh org tak mempunyai daya sgt...

Tak reti nak buat mcm ni, so dia bg effort dia dgn cara laen...

Stiap org ada cara masing2...so sape yang dah buat, dah berusaha...

Sy ucapkan tahniah dan terima kasih...

Harap anda jangan terasa...

AKU KESAL!!!!

nak tau kesal dengan sape??

AKU KESAL DENGAN BUDAK-BUDAK ANGKLUNG!!!!!!

Sape nak terasa...aku minta maaf siap2...ampun dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki...tapi aku bukan lagi wahida yang akan diam dan pendam je apa yang aku rasa...aku bukan lagi budak yang takut dengan risiko atau apa yang orang laen bakal perkatakan...dan aku juga tak kesah if ada yang nak benci aku atau nak mengata aku...sbb dalam hal ni, aku tau aku betul...

First and foremost...post ini tidak mengabaikan senior2 yg laen sbb smua dah maenkan part masing2 and smua ada contribution masing2...tapi sesungguhnya ini rasa geram aku, so aku akan cakap apa yang aku tau, if ada info yang salah, i stand corrected...

Second, aku tak kecik hati dengan remarks yang dilemparkan junior2 setelah mereka disembur oleh aku malam semalam...sebaliknya aku geram sebab: (baca satu2, and fahamkan)

1. Bukan duit korang beli angklung2 tu semua, itu harta universiti, prihatin la sket. Sekali pun rasa universiti tu cekik darah suruh korg byr mende tu mende nih, tapi itu takde kena mengena dgn angklung. besok2 dah rosak, ingat petik jari bleh dapat baru ke???
2. Nak dapat angklung tu pun bukan senang, dah dekat 6 tahun lebih baru dapat set baru tuh, tu pun dengan tak maen arumba2 sgala pun dah ada yang pecah. sedih tgk kot, mende tu tersadai je.
   
3. Aku bagai nak mampus naik turun s-dev tu dulu buat proposal nak beli set baru tuh. Tahan kena maki kena kutuk dengan kelab laen, bodek officer lah apa lah sbb aku slalu ke sdev tuh.
   
4. Aku buat kerja2 officer (padahal time tu still student and tak keje dekat sdev pun lagi) sbb officer bz, lillah sebab aku nak tgk impian dapat angklung baru tu tercapai.
5. Memusing merata segenap pelusuk KL nih sbb s-dev letak syarat nak at least 3 quotation angklung from kedai2 berbeza. Siot! Brp kedai la sgt ada dekat KL nih nak cari pun. Takpe, sesat2 pun pi cari gak mana je org kata ada kedai.
6. Tanya lah sape2 pun, brp org je yg pernah tgk proposal nak beli alat-alat muzik. Tanyalah officer yg ada skrg, masa dia 1st masuk s-dev sape yg terpaksa edit and pahamkan procurement proposal application tu, padahal tak tau mende pun.
7. Tanya sape senior yang kejenya dok gam angklung tak habes2 sebab nak maintain angklung tu bagi elok je. Minyakkan sentiasa sebab nak bg tahan lama.
8. Tanya sape plak yang sanggup stay back sampai mlm, berjaya, tidur dlm bilik angklung, buat mission impossible tak hingat semata-mata nak ada lagu baru, semata-mata nak bg naik nama angklung, semata-mata nak semua org hepi ada lagu baru and tak boring asyik maen lagu lama.
9. Tanya sape lagi yang sanggup berendam air mata sebab nak bagi nama kelab naik.
10. Tanya sape yang sanggup turun jawatan, hanya dengan harapan nak org nampak yang angklung sentiasa laen drpd laen, tak berkira, tak berpuak-puak dan sanggup menerima cabaran untuk kenaikan kelabnya..

Aku bukan nak mengungkit....jauh sekali nak mengharap acknowledgment from korang. Aku tak ingin pangkat, aku tak ingin nama untuk diri sendri. Nama aku sendri pun dah cukup hebat. Aku bukan nak riak...

Cuma apa yang aku harapkan, is that u people show more effort. bukan effort utk bermain angklung semata. effort untuk menghargai segala usaha yang dah dibuat sebelum nih. Kesenangan yg korg nampak sekarang, adalah hasil hempas pulas ramai org sebelum anda. DEI!!! PIKIAQ la sket. Otak tuhan bagi, adakan?? so gunalah...

Mmg la ngkau kena marah free2 walau itu bukan angklung yang kau maen, tapi dah sah2 kaki ngkau yang atas angklung tuh kot!!! kaki kau yg pijak angklung tuh!!! Bodoh ke hape... itu pun nak kena ajar ke...mmg bukan angklung tu yg kau maen, tapi itu tetap sebijik angklung kan!!! apsal klu bukan angklung tu yang kau maen, so bleh la pijak bg patah??? macam tu ke??? pakai otak la...sama2 jaga angklung2 tu tak boleh ke??

Berapa puluh ramai yang ada dekat situ... sebijik demi sebijik angklung org terpijak lah tersepak lah tertendanglah jatuh lah...sorg pun takde ingatan nak angkat angklung2 tuh and susun dekat tepi...nak tggu org laen yg bukan ahli kelab angklung sebut, br nak ingat. malulah sket, org laen reti hargai alat muzik korg, yg korg???? attitude takle pakai nih, mmg akan buat angklung jatuh balik. alat muzik sndiri takle hargai, apa lagi nak hargai alat muzik laen. mmg bukan jiwa seni, mmg tak reti adat, mmg takle pakai.

AMBIK BERAT SKET!!! COLLECTIVE EFFORT!!! NI TAK, TAU NAK JAGA GLEMOUR DIRI SENDIRI JE!! HELLO, ANGKLUNG IS A TEAM EFFORT OK!!! JANGAN BADGET NAK GLEMOUR DENGAN MAIN ALAT MUZIK. MAEN ALAT MUZIK BUKAN PLATFORM UTK PUBLISITI DIRI SENDRI. HANCUR BERDERAI ALAT TU, HABUK PUN TAK DAK NAK MAEN. PAHAM SKET MISI DAN VISI KELAB. ITU PUN IF KORG STILL TAU APA VISI DAN MISI KELAB.

Pelik...Weird...

Setelah sekian lama, akhirnya aku menerima pelawaan rakan2 untuk turut serta dalam sebuah program kebudayaan. Rindu rasanya untuk bersama dengan semua dan bergelak ketawa bagai tiada apa yang membelengu jiwa. Tapi dua malam sepanjang persiapan untuk program tersebut aku rasakan sangat pelik dan meruntun perasaan. Aku tidak tau dia berada di sana.

I thought I was ok. I thought I have passed that stage where I might freak out and be stunned, not able to move a muscle. But I was wrong, I was definitely wrong. When I found out that he was there, I panicked. It's not that I made any mistake towards him or anything. None of what happened was my fault. It was just that I froze. I couldn't and wasn't able to face him and feel all those emotional turmoil again. Not now, not when I finally feel that I was getting better, that I was healing.

They told me that he too was searching. He was looking around the hall, at every single faces. As if he was searching for someone. I don't know if that's true. But I couldn't bear to be near him now, after all that has happened. I know that he too was keeping a distance. He was also trying to keep the atmosphere neutral. He stayed amongst his friends and I stayed amongst mine. Pelik rasanya...macam budak2 pun ada gak...macam maen sembunyi2...ntah la...

None of us talk to each other throughout the night. What's funny is that, we sms'd before the show. And yet we fail to acknowledge each other that night. I don't know about him, but I even tried to not look at him at all. But obviously, I failed. I sneaked peeks at him and whenever I thought he's not looking. Don't get me wrong, but I believe that he did the same thing.

After the show, the only form of acknowledgment of each others presence was a moment of eye contact that we shared. In a split second before each of us retreated our gazes. That one moment and last moment. It felt weird. It felt final. Thus, I had a splitting headache right after that. I don't know why.

The truth is that, I missed him, terribly. As a friend...as a brother...as somebody that I could always confide in...as somebody that I would be myself when I am around him...

LOVE ETHUSIAST

This is what I got for a quiz that I took...

"You are fanatic towards love! Basically your attitude towards love is affective. When you think that the other side is treating you nice, you would wholeheartedly treat him very nice too. With everything he/she proposes, you would definitely say YES! You are willing to share everything with him/her. Give you an advice. Love is not a fair game. What you give would not be that same as what you get in return. Therefore, don't take love too serious. You need a love consultant, no matter your friends and family members. They can give you more objective recommendations."

What is sad...is the part where it said, 'Love is not a fair game and dont take love serious....'

If I do that then I would be like any other ppl out there. Who plays with people's heart and yet they say they do it, in the name of love. What effected me was that, the analysis from the quiz is somewhat 95% true. The one not so true part would be that I WON'T be willing to share just about everything with him. Mana bleh, tak halal lagi beb...hahaha....

Yes, I am sceptical about people that I meet...and I dont get close to people that easily....people might think that I can get close to people easily because they think I can communicate well, be friendly, plaster a smile everyday...but that doesn't mean that I am attached to that person. Being close to somebody, for me, would be to be able to simply be myself...say what I think and I dont have to pretend to be something that I am not... and not many people I can do this with...well mostly they are girls...except one...

Nukilan Hati

Nota untuk seorang lelaki yang pernah bertaktha di hati...

Saya telah mengembara ke hujung dunia, mencari cinta saya. Tapi pertama kali bertemu awak, hati saya terus terpaut, walaupun saya tidak sedar... Demi tuhan, saya tak tahu kenapa. Tapi itulah kebenarannya..

Awak mencabar saya dengan keprihatinan awak. Sedangkan saya telah membuat janji pada diri sendiri untuk tidak terlalu menyayangi insan bernama lelaki. Hanya dengan sebuah renungan, saya jatuh tersungkur ke penjuru mata awak.... saya tak dapat membohongi perasaan saya bahawa saya menyayangi awak..

Dan saat saya mula mencintai awak, saya jatuh ke dasar perasaan yg paling dalam... Lemas dan hampir tenggelam... dalam lautan kasih sayang, seribu impian, dan saya mula terpikir, saya mengembara ke hujung dunia, mencari awak, rupanya awak ada di sisi saya selama ini dan baru saya sedari tika dan saat itu...

Bagai merpati putih cinta saya berkelana mencari singgahsana di hati awak... nyata saya tak temuinya..... Tapi akhirnya, bila awak telah memiliki cinta saya... awak mencampakkannya jauh ke dasar laut yg tak mampu saya selam.... disana saya tak mampu melihat cahaya.. Awak beri saya harapan, dan akhirnya awak jugalah yg menyalakan api dan membakar saya dalam diam...

Saya sedih sangat, bila awak kata awak tak tahu apa yg sebenarnya awak cari....saya rasa kehilangan bila awak kata kita tak setaraf dan tak rasi bersama.... Tapi jauh disudut hati ini, saya merasakan awak masih belum cukup dewasa untuk memahami apa itu cinta dan mungkin tak akan pernah dewasa..... Atau mungkin juga.. awak belum pernah benar2 jatuh cinta pada seseorang... Jadi, selama ini siapa saya dihati awak...????

Adakah selama ini awak sebenarnya tidak pernah menyintai saya?

Siapa yg memujuk saya untuk membuka pintu hati?

Siapa yg meyakinkan saya bahawa bukan semua lelaki durjana, bukan semua lelaki serupa?

Siapa yg mengajar saya,bahawa Cinta itu perlukan pengorbanan?

Siapa yg memberitahu saya agar sentiasa jujur pada perasaan sendiri??


awak.....

Awak mungkin jenis lelaki yg boleh menyintai ramai perempuan berkali-kali. Tapi saya pula seorang perempuan yg percaya bahawa dalam hidup saya hanya ada 1 lelaki, 1 cinta dan 1 perkhawinan....

Kita hidup sekali, mati sekali dan menyintai sekali.......

Melangkah jauh daripada awak, telah mengambil seluruh kekuatan yg saya ada. Jangan anggap saya merelakan perpisahan ini kerana saya bencikan awak. Jangan pernah menganggap..

Bagaimana harus saya bencikan awak, sedangkan setiap hari, saya merindui awak, biarpun pada ketika awak berada disisi saya... setiap saat saya mengingati awak... seumur hidup ini saya mencintai awak...

Awak...

Sebelum saya menghilang dari dunia awak, saya ingin menyatakan sesuatu, yang tak pernah awak tahu. Kalaulah awak bertanya pada saya, sedalam mana saya cintakan awak, inilah jawapan saya....

'Kalau suatu hari, awak kehilangan suara, saya akan memberi suara saya, agar awak dapat bersuara semula. Meskipun waktu itu, saya akan bisu buat selamanya....'

'Dan kalau suatu hari awak kehilangan hati, saya akan memberi hati saya agar awak dapat hidup untuk selama-lamanya, Meskipun waktu itu saya tiada lagi di dunia ini...(awak tak pernah tahu).

Semuanya untuk awak, tapi satu jer.. yg tidak akan awak dapat dari saya sebelum awak menikahi saya....

Seseorang pernah berkata,

'If you really love someone, then let that person go. If that person is meant for you, that person will come back to you eventually. But if that person does not, then that person was never meant for you, in the first place.....'

Awak.......

Kerana saya mencintai awaklah saya merelakan perpisahan ini, demi kebahagiaan awak.... saya berdoa supaya suatu hari nanti, awak akan temui apa yg awak cari.... Supaya suatu hari nanti awak akan memahami apa erti cinta yang sebenar... supaya suatu hari nanti, awak akan dapat mengetahui, bagaimana rasanya terlalu amat mencintai seseorang.... dan semoga awak takkan pernah terlewat untuk menghargainya.....

Awak.....

saya percaya pada tuhan yg mempertemukan kita, saya tahu ada hikmah disebalik semua ini.... dan saya tak akan menyoal... saya juga tak pernah kesal.... sekurang-kurangnya sepanjang mengenali awak, saya telah bersikap ikhlas dan jujur dengan perasaan saya.....saya telah mengenali apa itu cinta......

Saya juga percaya, andai benar kita punya jodoh, awak akan kembali pada saya.... itu bukan harapan saya... itu dia saya....tapi saya ingin belajar untuk pasrah pada ketentuan tuhan... Dan kalaupun awak takkan pernah kembali pada saya, saya percaya, mungkin itu yg terbaik...

Saya harap suatu hari awak akan dapat baca nukilan ini...

Terima Kasih di atas segalanya....

Apa Ada Pada Nama

RAJA
R	Ramah
A	Amanah
J	Jujur
A	Alim
Apa ada pada nama?

Jika difikir...apa ada pada nama yang menyebabkan ramai terpedaya...

Apa ada pada nama sehingga ramai yg menyanjung dan tergila-gila...

Apa ada pada nama sehingga seorang insan itu hilang nilai diri yang sebenarnya...

NURWAHIDA
N	Naif
U	Untung
R	Ramah
W	Warak
A	Amanah
H	Harum
I	Ikhlas
D	Dinamik
A	Alim
Apa ada pada nama?

...Tapi

...Bukankah nama itu suatu doa seperti mana yang telah dijanjikanNYa

...Bukankah panggilan yang baik-baik mampu memupuk sahsiah yang terpuji

ADLEEN
A	Amanah
D	Dinamik
L	Lemah-lembut
E	Emosional
E	Egoistik
N	Naif
Apa ada pada nama?

Nama mencerminkan peribadi diri...

Nama dapat memupuk keperibadian seseorang muslim...

Nama merupakan doa yang diterima, diminta untuk kita tiap-tiap hari...

...Namun

...Ramai yang gagal menyedari hakikat ini

...Ramai yang gila glamour dan kemasyuran sementara bernama glory

My Birthday - Last year hehe

Wow it has been quiet a while since I last updated my blog.

Well, to start of, I thot of writing some simple posts and updates on my life. Well as you can see, on the left is my birthday cake, which my friends (from the office) had suprised me with.

It was a lovely cake, courtesy of 'DE HEART ONLINE KITCHEN. You can check the blog if you want to. The cupcakes and cakes made are very pretty indeed and at an affordable price. Be it with buttercream frosting, chocolate ganache or even fondant finishing, ur cake or cupcake will simply be beautiful. My cake was a vanilla choc chip )i think) with buttercream frosting.

Excuse the writings on it...that can be credited to a friend of mine who is also my junior from school, Saadah ribena, because she is very hyper active and childish. Ha, dgr tu saad....childish ok. huhuhu.... Well, anywaiz, it was a nice birthday suprise. They took me out to Pizza Hut during our lunch break and saad came with another friend bringing the cake. Then we all had a splendid lunch together.

That was when another friend who is the boss's PA, told me that my dad (the Boss) was the one who gave them the money for the whole suprise celeb. I was shocked and delighted at first, but as we move on throughout the day, some thoughts begin to crept into my head.

Its was ok to know that your father actually asked ur friends to buy u something but what's sad is that, my friend, the PA, needs to first remind my father that it was my birthday. And he even gave her money to go buy a card to be given to me. And they say its the thot that counts....well, i dunno....