LOVE ETHUSIAST

This is what I got for a quiz that I took...

"You are fanatic towards love! Basically your attitude towards love is affective. When you think that the other side is treating you nice, you would wholeheartedly treat him very nice too. With everything he/she proposes, you would definitely say YES! You are willing to share everything with him/her. Give you an advice. Love is not a fair game. What you give would not be that same as what you get in return. Therefore, don't take love too serious. You need a love consultant, no matter your friends and family members. They can give you more objective recommendations."

What is sad...is the part where it said, 'Love is not a fair game and dont take love serious....'

If I do that then I would be like any other ppl out there. Who plays with people's heart and yet they say they do it, in the name of love. What effected me was that, the analysis from the quiz is somewhat 95% true. The one not so true part would be that I WON'T be willing to share just about everything with him. Mana bleh, tak halal lagi beb...hahaha....

Yes, I am sceptical about people that I meet...and I dont get close to people that easily....people might think that I can get close to people easily because they think I can communicate well, be friendly, plaster a smile everyday...but that doesn't mean that I am attached to that person. Being close to somebody, for me, would be to be able to simply be myself...say what I think and I dont have to pretend to be something that I am not... and not many people I can do this with...well mostly they are girls...except one...

Nukilan Hati

Nota untuk seorang lelaki yang pernah bertaktha di hati...

Saya telah mengembara ke hujung dunia, mencari cinta saya. Tapi pertama kali bertemu awak, hati saya terus terpaut, walaupun saya tidak sedar... Demi tuhan, saya tak tahu kenapa. Tapi itulah kebenarannya..

Awak mencabar saya dengan keprihatinan awak. Sedangkan saya telah membuat janji pada diri sendiri untuk tidak terlalu menyayangi insan bernama lelaki. Hanya dengan sebuah renungan, saya jatuh tersungkur ke penjuru mata awak.... saya tak dapat membohongi perasaan saya bahawa saya menyayangi awak..

Dan saat saya mula mencintai awak, saya jatuh ke dasar perasaan yg paling dalam... Lemas dan hampir tenggelam... dalam lautan kasih sayang, seribu impian, dan saya mula terpikir, saya mengembara ke hujung dunia, mencari awak, rupanya awak ada di sisi saya selama ini dan baru saya sedari tika dan saat itu...

Bagai merpati putih cinta saya berkelana mencari singgahsana di hati awak... nyata saya tak temuinya..... Tapi akhirnya, bila awak telah memiliki cinta saya... awak mencampakkannya jauh ke dasar laut yg tak mampu saya selam.... disana saya tak mampu melihat cahaya.. Awak beri saya harapan, dan akhirnya awak jugalah yg menyalakan api dan membakar saya dalam diam...

Saya sedih sangat, bila awak kata awak tak tahu apa yg sebenarnya awak cari....saya rasa kehilangan bila awak kata kita tak setaraf dan tak rasi bersama.... Tapi jauh disudut hati ini, saya merasakan awak masih belum cukup dewasa untuk memahami apa itu cinta dan mungkin tak akan pernah dewasa..... Atau mungkin juga.. awak belum pernah benar2 jatuh cinta pada seseorang... Jadi, selama ini siapa saya dihati awak...????

Adakah selama ini awak sebenarnya tidak pernah menyintai saya?

Siapa yg memujuk saya untuk membuka pintu hati?

Siapa yg meyakinkan saya bahawa bukan semua lelaki durjana, bukan semua lelaki serupa?

Siapa yg mengajar saya,bahawa Cinta itu perlukan pengorbanan?

Siapa yg memberitahu saya agar sentiasa jujur pada perasaan sendiri??


awak.....

Awak mungkin jenis lelaki yg boleh menyintai ramai perempuan berkali-kali. Tapi saya pula seorang perempuan yg percaya bahawa dalam hidup saya hanya ada 1 lelaki, 1 cinta dan 1 perkhawinan....

Kita hidup sekali, mati sekali dan menyintai sekali.......

Melangkah jauh daripada awak, telah mengambil seluruh kekuatan yg saya ada. Jangan anggap saya merelakan perpisahan ini kerana saya bencikan awak. Jangan pernah menganggap..

Bagaimana harus saya bencikan awak, sedangkan setiap hari, saya merindui awak, biarpun pada ketika awak berada disisi saya... setiap saat saya mengingati awak... seumur hidup ini saya mencintai awak...

Awak...

Sebelum saya menghilang dari dunia awak, saya ingin menyatakan sesuatu, yang tak pernah awak tahu. Kalaulah awak bertanya pada saya, sedalam mana saya cintakan awak, inilah jawapan saya....

'Kalau suatu hari, awak kehilangan suara, saya akan memberi suara saya, agar awak dapat bersuara semula. Meskipun waktu itu, saya akan bisu buat selamanya....'

'Dan kalau suatu hari awak kehilangan hati, saya akan memberi hati saya agar awak dapat hidup untuk selama-lamanya, Meskipun waktu itu saya tiada lagi di dunia ini...(awak tak pernah tahu).

Semuanya untuk awak, tapi satu jer.. yg tidak akan awak dapat dari saya sebelum awak menikahi saya....

Seseorang pernah berkata,

'If you really love someone, then let that person go. If that person is meant for you, that person will come back to you eventually. But if that person does not, then that person was never meant for you, in the first place.....'

Awak.......

Kerana saya mencintai awaklah saya merelakan perpisahan ini, demi kebahagiaan awak.... saya berdoa supaya suatu hari nanti, awak akan temui apa yg awak cari.... Supaya suatu hari nanti awak akan memahami apa erti cinta yang sebenar... supaya suatu hari nanti, awak akan dapat mengetahui, bagaimana rasanya terlalu amat mencintai seseorang.... dan semoga awak takkan pernah terlewat untuk menghargainya.....

Awak.....

saya percaya pada tuhan yg mempertemukan kita, saya tahu ada hikmah disebalik semua ini.... dan saya tak akan menyoal... saya juga tak pernah kesal.... sekurang-kurangnya sepanjang mengenali awak, saya telah bersikap ikhlas dan jujur dengan perasaan saya.....saya telah mengenali apa itu cinta......

Saya juga percaya, andai benar kita punya jodoh, awak akan kembali pada saya.... itu bukan harapan saya... itu dia saya....tapi saya ingin belajar untuk pasrah pada ketentuan tuhan... Dan kalaupun awak takkan pernah kembali pada saya, saya percaya, mungkin itu yg terbaik...

Saya harap suatu hari awak akan dapat baca nukilan ini...

Terima Kasih di atas segalanya....

Apa Ada Pada Nama

RAJA
R	Ramah
A	Amanah
J	Jujur
A	Alim
Apa ada pada nama?

Jika difikir...apa ada pada nama yang menyebabkan ramai terpedaya...

Apa ada pada nama sehingga ramai yg menyanjung dan tergila-gila...

Apa ada pada nama sehingga seorang insan itu hilang nilai diri yang sebenarnya...

NURWAHIDA
N	Naif
U	Untung
R	Ramah
W	Warak
A	Amanah
H	Harum
I	Ikhlas
D	Dinamik
A	Alim
Apa ada pada nama?

...Tapi

...Bukankah nama itu suatu doa seperti mana yang telah dijanjikanNYa

...Bukankah panggilan yang baik-baik mampu memupuk sahsiah yang terpuji

ADLEEN
A	Amanah
D	Dinamik
L	Lemah-lembut
E	Emosional
E	Egoistik
N	Naif
Apa ada pada nama?

Nama mencerminkan peribadi diri...

Nama dapat memupuk keperibadian seseorang muslim...

Nama merupakan doa yang diterima, diminta untuk kita tiap-tiap hari...

...Namun

...Ramai yang gagal menyedari hakikat ini

...Ramai yang gila glamour dan kemasyuran sementara bernama glory

My Birthday - Last year hehe

Wow it has been quiet a while since I last updated my blog.

Well, to start of, I thot of writing some simple posts and updates on my life. Well as you can see, on the left is my birthday cake, which my friends (from the office) had suprised me with.

It was a lovely cake, courtesy of 'DE HEART ONLINE KITCHEN. You can check the blog if you want to. The cupcakes and cakes made are very pretty indeed and at an affordable price. Be it with buttercream frosting, chocolate ganache or even fondant finishing, ur cake or cupcake will simply be beautiful. My cake was a vanilla choc chip )i think) with buttercream frosting.

Excuse the writings on it...that can be credited to a friend of mine who is also my junior from school, Saadah ribena, because she is very hyper active and childish. Ha, dgr tu saad....childish ok. huhuhu.... Well, anywaiz, it was a nice birthday suprise. They took me out to Pizza Hut during our lunch break and saad came with another friend bringing the cake. Then we all had a splendid lunch together.

That was when another friend who is the boss's PA, told me that my dad (the Boss) was the one who gave them the money for the whole suprise celeb. I was shocked and delighted at first, but as we move on throughout the day, some thoughts begin to crept into my head.

Its was ok to know that your father actually asked ur friends to buy u something but what's sad is that, my friend, the PA, needs to first remind my father that it was my birthday. And he even gave her money to go buy a card to be given to me. And they say its the thot that counts....well, i dunno....

Shut Down - Power Failure

What happens when you feel that life is better off when u r alone...

What happens when you feel that u have no one to talk to...

What happens when you feel that you can't talk to the person who understands u most...

What happens when you feel that you are alone...

What happens when you feel that you dont know how to live by urself anymore...

What happens when you feel that you cant cry to the person who u depend on the most...

What happens when you feel that you want to shut urself from the world...

What happens when you feel that having a fake smile plastered is easier that dealing with everything else...

What happens when you feel that your joyful laughter and most sincere smile is forever gone...

What happens when you feel that you...

Do not feel anything at all...

I think I'm sick...
I have bruises all over my body...
Dont know how i got them...
Cepat je lebam sana sini...
Weird...

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3 Different Meanings to My Life (c)

Emilia - Big Big World

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if u leave me

But I do do feel

That I do do will

Miss u much Miss u much

I can see the first leafs falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if u leave me

But I do do feel

That I do do will

Miss u much Miss u much

Outside it's no raining

And tears are falling from my eyes

Why did it have to happen

Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if u leave me

But I do do feel

That I do do will

Miss u much Miss u much

I have your arms around me

Warm like fire

But when I open my eyes......

Your gone

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if u leave me

But I do do feel

That I do do will

Miss u much

Miss u much

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing

If u leave me

But I do Feel I will

Miss u much miss u much